tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38699495376075554022024-03-05T17:57:45.438+08:00The Road..I'm on my way...Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.comBlogger119125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-90400529957518835172013-12-15T02:59:00.001+08:002013-12-15T03:01:31.698+08:00Hit the Reset Button.It's week 8 of the sem. If life had a remote control, i'd hit Replay/Reset so i could relive this sem in a different way. Much has been going on, but nothing has been happening. It's week 8 now and assignments and midterms are catching up to me.<br />
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I was pretty lifeless for 2 months. I know people noticed. And I know it affected some pretty badly. But I didn't care. I waited and waited for someone to come along and just say:"Buck up Jian." But no one did. Everyone was just concerned if CG was going well or not, whether the CGLs had been 'talked to' already or not.. Whether I had planned everything out for backup or not.. As if all they needed/wanted from me was for me to deliver. Rather than investing in me as a person, as a friend, as a senior. Just cause I'd been through more than you doesn't mean I've all the answers. Or rather, just because I've the answers I can't be expected to believe in what I say 24/7. I'm human, I've my doubts my moments of weaknesses.<br />
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But I don't blame you... Hardly anyone knows the real me here anyway. Hence my expectations might've been too far fetched. Closing off doors expecting people to break through them probably isn't the way to go HAHAHHAAHAH... Sound like girl nie XD... Was glad Alvin came down for most of the week. Didn't confess my issue to him; but I actually went to classes.. I actually went out..<br />
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But regardless; it's time to hit ignition again. Gotta help myself. Hence I'm letting it out here. God won't you take control again.<br />
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<i>Isaiah 40:31 </i><br />
<i>...but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar
on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk
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A verse which kept ringing in my mind all this while... time to soar.<br />
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Signing off,<br />
Jian.<br />
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P.S. If I may seem blunt, these feelings have been pent up for 2 months.. So I apologize. Hold it against me if u must, but do forgive me my transgressions. =)Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-4665755133591963362013-08-28T02:41:00.001+08:002013-08-28T02:41:18.086+08:00Keep walking...Something i've to remind myself everyday... else i'd stop. and time would stop moving.. again. I don't want that. Supper today was interesting... mainly because Alvin was around.. and Zijian picking went to a whole new level... tu lah throw in MT lagi... Funny giler... say something kena.. quiet kena.. walk away kena.. emodai hahahahahaha..<br />
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They said I can tahan cuz i too patient d... that whatever comes I'd just bow n laugh/shrug it off... The truth is that i just have other things in my mind.. things that i'd never opened up to people. well I tried, but they seemed to be more preoccupied by their problems; and i'd always end up hearing them out instead.. So i stopped looking for shoulders of comfort long ago. and well, mainly because the only shoulder i had is also why i need a shoulder nowadays.<br />
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I'll admit tho, most of the time I cari pasal by letting my mind go berserk. But the trauma I went through isn't that easy to let go. I could've if I wanted to I suppose... but its just me being a childish idiot i suppose.<br />
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I've said I need to move on. I've said I'll keep my distance. But in my stubborn little ways I'd continue to call/message her. My mind wanders to her.. wanting her attention. bodo.<br />
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Then there's this whole other matter of the wrong signal thingy... Alvin n Hannah having the time of their lives bugging me bout it... =.=... I've let go people!! But it's a normal thing to feel attraction ma.. hence face red lor... sorry lorrr.... maklumlah she's a really attractive person, not to mention the amount of time spent around her. But sometimes I wonder why she still hangs around so often. why she omits his name whenever she hangs out with him.. but maybe that's just me thinking too much.<br />
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Gotta focus back on God. n Assgs... I look forward to Running Man 2.0... didn't join nor organize the 1st one... will be fun this time around =D<br />
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finally rant habis. nite peeps!! Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-42631031682663805592013-07-31T02:07:00.000+08:002013-07-31T02:07:25.207+08:00Random...I hate myself for the past. For every wrong that i'd done. For every compromise I took. For every failure that happened. I hate myself.<br />
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Gotta wash out this self pity. I'm letting this go. A child of God has no time to wallow in such things. Time to look forward. Attend to the needs of others. Settle my degree. Begin to work out God's calling for me in life. I guess Alvin's slowly finding his way there.. and that's after 7 months of agonizing waiting on God and seeking Him. He's diff now than he was back in Alpha. From a guy that disliked 'all u cf ppl'... he came to call CF his home, to the extent that he 'loved' its people. and now God's preparing him for greater things. I feel so left behind... Burdened by things which should've not been mine. Fighting battles which I didn't need to fight in the first place. Everyday is such a drag. Scott asked me why don't I go to class even though i was awake? I didn't have the heart to tell him this was the answer.<br />
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OK!! I'm done!!! Time to wipe these thoughts away n go tido... Btw here're d events lined up and coming...<br />
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Tmr 9-5... Happiness Project<br />
Thurs... CG Games woots!!!<br />
Fri... WOT Marathon all night<br />
Sat... MELAKA CAMPPPPPP<br />
Monday: Holidaysssssssssssssss!!!!! XD XD XDZj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-79090671282769417422013-07-25T16:00:00.000+08:002013-07-25T16:00:26.707+08:00I'm.So.Excited.Just found out today that industrial training is only another semester away... Can't wait!!! D=<br />
Even though you're already in posting... and you might probably graduate earlier than me... But i suppose no one else would be happier for me than you. You don't know how much i wanna share this with you... But at least this little piece of joy will be recorded down here... =D<br />
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Gotta start planning during the sem break... Should I go back to penang and get a company there? Or should I go to Singapore? My uncle mentioned the possibility of interning for Razer. Who wouldn't want that??? Might even get to nick off some products for free muahahaha... XD<br />
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CG will be in awhile... This year things are different... Being coordinator, I can see many things i didn't as a CG leader... Or rather, I'm forced to look further than ever before... Thank God for Chris for his concerns... for Hannah which I inherited this privilege.. and to Esmond for helping me figure out the next step in this ministry... =)<br />
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Dealing with people is no easy task... trying to please both sides, when both are involved in God's ministry... It's like trying to bathe 2 dogs at once... So I pray for Your wisdom and guidance in the things I do or say regarding this matter.. or for any other matter.<br />
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<br />Need to sleep b4 Bible study later. nites XDZj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-57013959695377054372013-07-18T11:04:00.002+08:002013-07-18T15:56:57.925+08:00Good Morning. LOL...Lol. so epic... slpt at 4am, wake up b4 my alarm rang. achievement sia... Anyway, hari ini ku rasa bahagia. or at least I want to haha. Got some stuff planned for CG... *hint* Bacon n Cheese ngahahahaha..<br />
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Lately I'd been bit by the loneliness bug again. Maybe because She's said goodbye for good, maybe because a friend could just pass me by without even looking me in the eye, maybe because the hope i had for a healthy relationship with another is gone now that i know she's interested in another, maybe because alvin is so far away HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... not to mention hui lee also giler faar. that james lagiiiii fffffaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrr..... think he's in Auckland right now. can't wait to finally visit him someday.<br />
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For as long as i can rmbr, i'd been awkward at making friends.. for most of primary school I only had one close friend. and we'd read harry potter together under the desk during classes. and exchange letters til we were high school mates. But nowadays she busy kerja d lah... It wasn't til I went to church and Penang that I knew how to socialize. But even then, most of my high school life was spent alone at home. F5 nie start going out for supper.. F5 nie had people calling home to look for me. Hahaaa... Sorry la i really wallflower wan XD<br />
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But it was during these years (F4) that I came to know a friend.. a friend so close she knows everything about me. Even the way I think. Hahahaha. A friend who came to be my confidant. someone I could tell and relate everything to.. and I knew her the same way too.. come to think of it, it's been 8 years now... but she's gone... gone from my life(no she's not dead)... choi. haha... I miss that friend. Got nobody to crap to hahahaha.. or rather, got nobody's crap to listen to.. I wonder how's her posting going on. How's her family. How's her gougou n hamsters. Don't know why. If she'd meant this much to me why'd I let her go in this way. why'd i hurt her so. I only pray God bless her life. Please don't let her grieve anymore...<br />
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On the other hand, banyak reminders to rise up as a man once again. Sulk enough d hahaha. Kena discipline and walk right in His ways. Got so many things coming up... Dunno can handle anot D=<br />
But I will... For my parent's sake, for the people I know...<br />
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P.S. Esmond so yeng!! Engaged d sia.. so epic... XD<br />
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P.PS There's only one person who can Drift with me. XDZj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-63819660605561963542013-07-12T01:03:00.001+08:002013-07-12T01:03:31.060+08:00Restless...Once again, i'm here to pen down my thoughts.. before i go insane.. haha.<br />
<br />Been thinking too much lately. It's been more than a year. Watching her leave on May 22nd I'd vowed not to step into her life again; I thought with the pain and misery I'd cause her... She'd be better off without me in it. IF ever we'd cross paths again, we'd just be friends...<br />
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I know now that's impossible... When you know someone that well, when that person becomes what you call a soulmate, regardless how far you've been apart, or how long. Some invisible thread binds you together. i'd realize i've been using someone else as a distraction. (the fact that i was so easily able to let her go proved that to myself)<br />
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So know what? You visit every night. So restless every night. or in the day, should i be alone. I need to study weii...... midterm tmr. scumbag brain think so much for what. <br />
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Thank God for James n Hui Lee. If not i'd be MIA again. GG my studies like that.<br />
I wonder if she's happy now she's let go of me. i know i'm not. It's like some big hole just dropped out in your heart like that. again. (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻<br /><br />
I need to fill my heart with God. I like that song Hannah sang on tues. I'm restless without You Father. Let me continue to walk on in your will. Walk on... Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-47101019762387976182013-07-11T01:21:00.000+08:002013-07-11T01:21:01.198+08:00What is wrong with me???I miss you. Like (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻<br />STOP IT BRAIN. GO SLEEP.Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-89543589708170085462013-07-04T04:41:00.001+08:002013-07-04T04:41:34.765+08:00Goodbye...I suppose today really is 'Goodbye'... I wish you a good life.. =)Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-40994620270523550932013-06-26T00:39:00.000+08:002013-06-26T00:39:15.476+08:00Trudging along.. but I must keep going.Lord, only you know what troubles this heart. Only you know the exact amount of stitches needed to patch this heart back together. I'm down but not out. Keep my under your Wing Lord, let me soar with you above the storms of my heart. where all is calm... and there's no one else.. but You. You in all your beauty, in all your Majesty.. And as I worship you continue to build your throne in my heart. Until there is non but Jesus as the Lord of my life. Until then, I ask for continued renewal of your strength.<br />
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I said some bodo stuff today. Ended up in an awkward situation. Bodo brain. Hahahahaha. But I trust it in your hands God. If can please make her forget bout today =.=.. seriously stupid...D=<br />
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Sermon today was really good. Defending my faith. Not with any fancy techniques or psychology or philosophy or anything complicated like that... Just defend it with the Bible. YESH TEH BIBLE!!! (No its not a spelling err XD)<br />
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The Bible is a double edged sword. and it works regardless against the powers of the other realm, or even in this physical world of ours. Must brush up my bible knowledge.. As Capt Don puts it: Don't read the Bible; STUDY IT!!! So, study hard peeps1! =D<br />
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Besok ada field trip p Bank Negara Msia... Shall be an interesting one. Hopefully they let us take pics.<br />
Then at night ada badminton lagi. WOOTS!!!<br />
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I suppose that shall be all for the night.. Gnite peeps XD Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-31272191185991257842013-06-19T00:50:00.002+08:002013-06-19T00:50:38.819+08:00BlehToday I folded. After 2 weeks into the deal. GAH. Gotta buck up. Cannot allow this to continue anymore. Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-36869078370613627042013-06-12T21:22:00.002+08:002013-06-12T21:22:22.404+08:00A moment's respite...Got an evening to myself... feels lonely you might think, but i suppose sometimes space and quiet is all you need to recharge..<br />
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Been doing a lot of reflecting lately... My life's been messed up for long enough... "I don't wanna live like this anymore" I thought to myself. All those msges and calls that can never see the light of day... I hated it. I hate living a double life. I wanna live for God. I wanna wait on Him. Serve His purpose.. and maybe someday find someone to be my partner in that mission.<br />
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Classes have been good. I wake up in the mornings now... XD...<br />
Just pray that I'll pass that supp.. o.O<br />
It's an interesting sem... can't wait for the trip up KL for Bank Negara next week.. not to mention that questionnaire we'll have to send to one of d schools around the area.. nice to actually do some assg that affects/involves the community around us..<br />
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Got the greenlight from Ps Les to contact him and arrange for CG missions. Let's see how things go =D<br />
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Finally realizing I'm not alone. That I've a place to go to when I need to... Special thanks to some special people frm the batch... regardless in uni or high school, i can proudly say i've found some golden friends... lol so weird right? sorry for the poor choice of words.. but they are as gold to me. =D<br />
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Josh has a show in KL this weekend... am contemplating about going... but tinggal kat mana?<br />
might wanna tarik few peeps along. HMMM...<br />
<br />Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-32207982121941627742013-05-17T04:21:00.002+08:002013-05-17T04:21:42.548+08:00Comm PlanningAnd so ended 2nd Comm planning... 2 heavy days of brainstorming, reflecting, visionizing (crap what's happening to my english) well just sharing some thougths about what i went through.<br />
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D reflection part was hard for me. I knew exactly what was holding me back from my serving. And I knew exactly what I need for me to be able to serve freely once again. But not once was I able to share out the whole truth... Talk about emotional roller coaster.. except this goes down forever and ever.. but then again, I hate roller coasters.. so up and down also tak suka HAHAHAHAHHAA...<br />
<br />Weekly meetings were discussed and brainstormed... As d afternoon went by I got slowly more excited as we came up with the names for our activities and sermons, regardless of that sorethroat (wan dai)<br />
After 12 hours of duking it out in FES (minus 2 hours for lunch n dinner ha) we finally managed to settle our weekly meetings...<br />
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Balik chill awhile den tido. Supposed wake up around 8.30 (which I did) to call Abel they all for bfast... Killed my alarm and went straight back tido. Late for 2nd day. Emo dai. Damn pikchik with myself.<br />
Blehh.........<br />
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Glad CG division went on without a hitch... Will type out everything in detail when I get back home (must put reminder)<br />
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Then came the major projects.. and the headache (literally).. As we come to our decisions and 'indecisions' in some cases... I just hope and pray for His guidance and providence.<br />
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That being said, there's a real need to fix my life. Lols... Fix this broken soul and mind and body Lord.. In your time and will. must discipline myself to read bible when i get home XD<br />
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Oh yea almost forgot. Washing feet during comm planning... Had to wash Abel mia... LOLs... Reminded me of the times in high school where we washed each others' feet. It was a humbling experience. This time it's a humbling reminder of Whose I am Whom I serve...<br />
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Praise be to the Lord in Heaven.Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-19651893739966287442013-05-14T01:47:00.003+08:002013-05-14T01:47:38.300+08:00Blehhh...Facing emotional turmoils every minute you've time to think for yourself every single day is NOT. FUN. Seriously man... i need help. zzZ... Can't even think straight... It's not like me to have suicidal thoughts... Haahahaha... At least I could put a rest to this sick mind soon enough... But meh. Too mainstream hahahahaha.. The battle shall continue.. Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-89751920827088285122013-05-06T23:00:00.002+08:002013-05-06T23:04:52.329+08:006th MayGloomiest Monday ever. Rained frm penang til KL til Seremban... It's like the sky is grieving for Malaysia too.. XD<br />
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Anyhow with elections over its time for Finals. That is, if i can sort my thoughts out...<br />
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Random thought: Malaysia has A LOT of flyovers... =.=...<br />
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Another random thought: I REALLY REALLY NEED someone to talk to. someone who'd understand me... Ps suggested a few. But i don't really know any of them. Once again.. so lonely...<br />
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Ps said i hang out too much with emo ppl... thats y i so emo. LOL... This response came after she asked who i hang out with most of d time.. I replied Scott.. Sam.. Edwin.. Jerome.. She laughed =.=...<br />
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Okay that's about it. Lepas Finals: WOT Marathon!!!Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-83500618077611429872013-05-02T02:59:00.002+08:002013-05-02T02:59:15.740+08:00Thoughts...Once again, i welcome you to take a walk in the park (or maybe its a maze/jungle, visualize as you like) of my mind... Nothing and several things have been happening of late... and it's tickled my mind enough to start mulling over them.<br />
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First of course is the upcoming elections in another 3 days. Damn its only 3 days away?! Honestly if you ask me for thoughts on the matter I do not really have an opinion. Its blatantly obvious some of the 'tricks' our current Gov is trying to pull throws human stupidity to a whole new level... But whoever stays in power after May the 5th, may God see fit to entrust that authority and leadership. That being said, I believe not in the party, but the person who is serving. Hence, should the local representative be from BN or PKR whatsoever, if he/she has proven their service for the people then I would cast my vote in favor of him/her. But seriously BN... just chill with the stuffs le.. damn imba u know.. why voting need to be so complicated. Why buat so much kacau? If you wanna win then be a GOOD government lah... whats up with all d corruption n stuffs? stress.. hahahaha..<br />
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<br />2nd, thankful for this sem (my STUDIES, mind you)... Everything's over, now just the Finals to focus on. Thank God I din go MIA. Almost did tho. Stress.<br />
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3rd... apparently somethings have been going on around me of which i've no knowledge about. I don't know what's giving you that increasingly nasty attitude. But whatever it is, I can only hope it doesn't affect our friendship that much. Honestly its driving me up the wall.<br />
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4th... Learned a lesson in discretion today. Must learn to keep my mouth shut. Here's an advice tho: Should you ever compromise and terlanjur, please be honest; it keeps the damage to a minimum. But best is just shut up k? XD<br />
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5th... I miss joy. God given Joy like nothing else can bring... I miss that joy... =)<br />
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I shall turn in soon. Kena tarik by abel to do his IC tmr morning along with scott as well. Oh well.. Bros outing hahahahahahaha...<br />
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PS. I actually want to be that one annoying friend that everyone hates and loves at the same time. XD Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-30476181952228573862013-04-29T13:19:00.001+08:002013-04-29T13:19:35.489+08:00Bangun la mangkukBe still my heart, and know that He is God. Not just any God, your God. Just wake up already...Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-29748663619690467082013-04-29T03:33:00.000+08:002013-04-29T03:33:06.933+08:00Deterioration.Forming a new mask for myself wherever I go. Asshole mask. Hahahahahaha. Dunno for what. Protect myself? Reflect what I'm really like inside? So people stay away? I don't care. Video project due Tuesday. Imma die.Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-59486349445823193402013-04-27T03:26:00.001+08:002013-04-27T03:26:54.324+08:00Random thoughts...Exhausted... Futsal without dinner was definitely not a good idea...<br />
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Was thinking about why people chase or long after happiness.. Indeed for some, sadness and pain becomes a steady companion even til death. And for some, regrets.<br />
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I've come to a point where I find it almost impossible to live in the victory of Christ. Where if I'm saved one more time, my God is the world's most unjust and unfair God. Haha stress.<br />
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2 days up in Camerons was bliss. Being with my peers once again... having the same though wavelengths.. Even though we don't talk often, I know i can lean on them somehow. My mind went elsewhere tho during that time. but i digress..<br />
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I'm hungry... and broke. Shall hunt for food... Hope besok boleh bangun for lunch with le CGLs =DZj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-26122873689332175972013-04-26T00:55:00.003+08:002013-04-26T00:55:47.704+08:00Thursday...Today was a good day, regardless of the voices inside my head. Woke up at 6.30 today. Just as planned. HAHAHA...<br />
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Managed to settle assignment, final class of the sem, Final CG which was some awesum fun!!! We had Wok n Pan dinner, some arcade games... (can't believe i actually tried that kangkang dancing thingy) Daytona was epic.. and we LOST to the girls in Basketball!!! Can u believe this??? o.O Siao liao...<br />
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To end it we went makan Baskin Robbins at Dataran field there.. too bad it melted... spent too much time at arcade LOL...<br />
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Best CG i've ever had in awhile. we had to rush back cuz I almost forgot Sa's curfew >.<... Made it in time tho...XD<br />
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That's about it for now... I suppose some joy is needed once in awhile eh? XD<br />
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PS. Good day haven't end yet. XD Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-89323766236340574222013-04-24T01:30:00.002+08:002013-04-24T01:30:42.465+08:00Tired?Living everyday is just so tiresome.... Maybe if i just don't wake up tomorrow morning?Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-78338540095236351602013-04-22T01:09:00.000+08:002013-04-22T01:09:33.956+08:00Aftermath..Just back from an awesome trip with awesome people up cameron's... Jerome let me drive downhill.. Woots! XD<br />
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Besok labtest. not prepared..<br />
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Gonna sleep and study early tomorrow.<br />
Thoughts for the day... It's getting very lonely here. So so lonely... Just so lonely.<br />
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<br />On a side note... Apparently I'm a useless piece of crap which will always be a useless piece of crap.. Good to know! =D<br />
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Goodnight everyone. =)Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-53710809955185829872013-04-10T04:55:00.002+08:002013-04-10T04:55:26.303+08:00A random story... just because i felt like it.. XD. . . as the bus rumbled by, I glanced at my watch, wondering when Bus No. 5 will come by. It's been a gloomy afternoon, as the clouds ran by over my head, as if racing to see who'd get to the end of the rainbow first. Rain seemed imminent since morning; yet not a droplet of it was in sight. A cruel joke on housewives having clothes to dry isn't it?<br />
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Today is my son's birthday... He's 5 this year, and I'm very excited to see his reaction when he sees the gift I'd bought him. It was a full set of a Lego Pirate Ship. I really hope he'll like it. It took me a whole afternoon of walking around the Toys R' Us in the local mall looking for the right set. It's been awhile since I saw my son. You see he stays a little away from me. That's why I have to take a bus to get to his house.<br />
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As I was mulling over my own thoughts the bus pulled up.<br />
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"Ticket to Pearl Street please," I said to the conductor.<br />
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"2 dollars," came a brisk, no nonsense reply. I paid my fare, and sat down on a seat at the third row. As the driver drove off, my thoughts began to wonder again..<br />
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About 20 minutes passed, and the bus dropped me at Pearl Street. My son should be staying at the end of the street... It was already 6pm, close to dinner... 'Maybe we can have take out tonight?' Again my thoughts wandered as I admired the neighbourhood while walking up to my son's house. Some kids were cycling around, while a dog chased a cat around not too far away. I took a deep breath, and walked up the lawn, and rang the doorbell to my son's home.<br />
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As the door opened, I shouted: "Happy 5th Birthday Michael! Look what daddy got ya?"<br />
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"Dad, I'm 35 already.. Did you sneak out of the old folk's home again?" Michael replied. I beamed and just nodded.<br />
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"Aw dad you do this every year; but I know you'll never forget my birthday. I love you dad," Michael said as he hugged me right across the back. A tear rolled down my cheek as I hear a young boy's voice at the back of the house: "Daddy daddy is Grandpa here to celebrate your birthday again?!"<br />
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-The End-Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-14792219736511408622013-04-10T04:31:00.000+08:002013-04-10T04:31:06.564+08:00It's been awhile...As the title says, yea... haven't been blogging for awhile. Mostly cuz my main inspiration is kinda gone nowadays.. heh.. Things are going so slow its glacial... or maybe i've grown so apathetic that I don't seem to care anymore... but i want to.. at least i think i want to. Just wondering when will i snap out of this.<br />
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Midterm on Thurs. Hope my CG can jadi lah... To be honest i really dunno what else i can do.. just so few people every week. We shall see when everyone comes back =)<br />
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Been binging on World of Tanks for d past few days... keeps my mind off things.. although i kinda feel bad for hogging Scott's com.. Can't wait for a pc i can call my own. XD<br />
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Well that's about it for now. Shall continue my I.T. Crowd. XD<br />
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PS. It was good to see her again. Zj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-57038098049266738922013-03-28T02:37:00.000+08:002013-03-28T02:37:41.735+08:00BlerghhhhRethinking my life again... Just how many times must I go through this phase man.. so tedious... XDZj89http://www.blogger.com/profile/07327421987896918588noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3869949537607555402.post-90366122701703559382013-03-26T04:01:00.003+08:002013-03-26T04:01:57.475+08:00Rain...It's been 2 weeks since I'm back.. more than a month since i last saw her.. come to think of it.. I really do miss her. Heh..<br />
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My thoughts hitherto are even more scrambled than Einstein's messy hair. I'd given up sorting them out. Numbs the pain at least. Just take everything step by step as they come. For now I need to focus on CF tmr, combination CGs this week, and serving on Sat..<br />
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I wish not to divulge my thoughts to anyone... there was a time I wished someone'd care enough to want to know me. There were, but I guess I'm not a very pleasant book to read. Somewhere halfway you'd find a torn off page.. misleading bookmarks everywhere.. heck the cover just looks nice while the plot is borderline non-existent. But I won't stop penning them down here i suppose.. It helps to know where my mind's been.. so that I can pull myself back, should I wander too far off course..<br />
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I've been irritable, withdrawn and just plain annoyed everytime I speak to some people... But lets hope that comes to past. For now i just wanna rest. So tired... even so, tomorrow is a new day to fight.<br />
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And now for a lil SS moment... XD<br />
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