Juz feeling a bit low..

Am currently restless.. listenin to the worship team practice outside my door..
Feelin realll emo.. Sometimes i feel so hyper and excited. and yet there's times i question the meaning of my actions.. my life.. people around me.. what am i here for.. its funny how much good u can do and no one ever notices.. and with one shortcoming, people lose their trust for you, stay away from you.. and ultimately.. these people u once called friends are nothin but people who popped up along the road of your life and popped off somewhere in the middle.. i'm tired.. tired of running here and there, pursuing relationships that never work out.. (not intimate ones).. im merely askin for a friend.. a friend to cry with, to laugh with, to listen to my jokes.. to laugh at my problems.. dang.. i need a girlfriend XD.. its not that i'm too free.. ive got lots to do.. worship coordinator.. IF Talk asst director.. helpin in church.. studies.. toppin that off somethin big happened last week.. which again made me question that which rules over us.. why are things allowed to happen as they do? why are some people so bent on solving problems with violence? why do people judge based on a past shortcoming, yet not look at the person u currently are? is there any justification for that? and am i to be blamed for bluntly stating my opinion? a fight was about to happen right in front of my eyes.. even so i'm not the one to say something about it? then WHO?? u tell me la. WHO??? u ah?? i tell u you wont even know about it if they didnt tell u. so please la.. don't tell me how to run my life.. or who i should respect.. i respect a lot of people.. but for some, i take my respect back. cuz they didnt deserve it. i dont care whether they're seniors or not. if one's wrong one shud admit it.. not take out others who dont stand with your side.. we're all grown ups and the only way u can solve a problem is go whack the fella.. hahahahahahaha.. what an adult!!! honestly im fed up with all this crap.. i will not stand for it.. sigh..

Anyway thats what im honestly feeling.. gonna cut it loose now.. Jesus, i ask for strength to go thru the days, i'm not perfect.. yet i will not let my anger get the best of me. Bless my enemies, and teach me to love them.. I need your guidance.. i really do.. i know that you are the personification of Love.. i just dont understand how things work in your way.. =.=.. guess i need to do a lot of growing up. Lord i ask u hear this prayer.. teach me how to love. Amen..

Assumptions.

Do NOT Assume.

I was going thru my day as usual when the thought hit me.. So just wanna post it up as a reminder..
Sometimes, jumping to self-made conclusions can go a long way.. that is, a long wayyy down.......

Assuming things about someone, or even something.. has lots of side effects.
Sometimes, it destroys relationships.
Sometimes, it breaks down the whole team spirit.
Sometimes, it can even cause an entire company to just bankrupt.

Things don't always appear as they seem. All things have depth to them. And the way we do things should be based on Facts, not half-cooked assumptions taken from a 2nd or 3rd party.

Just thinking bout some stuffs.. Heh..

Zj

1st CF...

Woo.. I'm back.. XD.. uhh.. well.. kinda no mood to update for d past month.. Heh..
Anyways.. its the start of a new sem, the start of new CFs, CGs, new friends, new crazy happenings..
Today is the 1st day of our CF.....

We started off with prayer b4 the meeting as usual, then ppl started coming in.. I got really nervous cuz its our 1st CF as committees.. How will it turn out? What if we hav probs? Mic doesn't work? No song lyrics???
Thank God it did tho. Brother Fook Meng shared something about our theme: The Axis Of Love, and Jeremy, Eunice and Josh shared their bit about our vision and mission..

Basically thats about it.. after that we went supper.. and then headed home. I'll upload some pics next time if i can.. Til then, this'll do i guess..

To Unite and Reach Out in God's Love..