Change..

Have i really changed? Everyday i'm still back in my old habits. Wake up Jian. You can fool the world, but not yourself. Not God. WAKE UP...

On a different note, since i don't wanna sleep.. i can, i don't want to.. haha.. lets just rant a lil.. Be warned, i'm tired, extremely tired.. forgive me if you find my rant to be offensive. =)

Was talking to few people the past few days... cuz stress pasal my assgs.. i really thank God for them.. i guess there really are people who'd genuinely care bout my studies, my well being. Parents been calling almost everyday =.=.. stress cuz the ptptn stuffs i din do.. hahaha.. someone help me? i'm totally clueless haha..

Again, talking with people.. in this case Nanneri, somehow the question: Why am i still here popped up.. Indeed. i'd been here 5 years ad.. move on la hahaha.. i'd never asked myself this question before... Why'd i stay in CF? but i suppose i already have an answer in my heart..

is CF really that bad right now? I suppose it was worse.. but now? have things changed for better? or did we just THINK they did and somehow hope they'll be? sigh.. God.. why la ppl so hard to love each other? i also pikchik with some people haha.. i know the answer lah.. just sayin.. heh..

but yea.. everything so instant nowadays. relationships are also instant...
1st impression bad, shunned.. isolated.. piss off one person whole gang come and gang up on u.. looks like there're some things u just can't stamp out huh.. people are people so wat to do haha..

had supper with kaevin, prav n jerome.. interesting topic bout graduating late.. learn your lesson ad lahhhhhhhh....... you're 23 ad.. still want your parents to worry meh??? Your bro is in FRIGGIN UNI!!!!! GOSH. when you wanna wake up from this dreamworld? Study harder can mou? Lingli's even getting married.. lol. that awkward moment when the girl you went on your 1st date with is marrying someone else 4 years later... u damn big screw up la u.. after that u got yourself a wonderful girlfriend.. now look what happened? u just HAD to screw it up.. just HAD TO...

i really want to change.. but i'm just reverting back to the old self.. but i wanna move forward. draw strength from God eh? 1st i gotta make my heart right in God 1st. Keep walking jian.