Juz feeling a bit low..

Am currently restless.. listenin to the worship team practice outside my door..
Feelin realll emo.. Sometimes i feel so hyper and excited. and yet there's times i question the meaning of my actions.. my life.. people around me.. what am i here for.. its funny how much good u can do and no one ever notices.. and with one shortcoming, people lose their trust for you, stay away from you.. and ultimately.. these people u once called friends are nothin but people who popped up along the road of your life and popped off somewhere in the middle.. i'm tired.. tired of running here and there, pursuing relationships that never work out.. (not intimate ones).. im merely askin for a friend.. a friend to cry with, to laugh with, to listen to my jokes.. to laugh at my problems.. dang.. i need a girlfriend XD.. its not that i'm too free.. ive got lots to do.. worship coordinator.. IF Talk asst director.. helpin in church.. studies.. toppin that off somethin big happened last week.. which again made me question that which rules over us.. why are things allowed to happen as they do? why are some people so bent on solving problems with violence? why do people judge based on a past shortcoming, yet not look at the person u currently are? is there any justification for that? and am i to be blamed for bluntly stating my opinion? a fight was about to happen right in front of my eyes.. even so i'm not the one to say something about it? then WHO?? u tell me la. WHO??? u ah?? i tell u you wont even know about it if they didnt tell u. so please la.. don't tell me how to run my life.. or who i should respect.. i respect a lot of people.. but for some, i take my respect back. cuz they didnt deserve it. i dont care whether they're seniors or not. if one's wrong one shud admit it.. not take out others who dont stand with your side.. we're all grown ups and the only way u can solve a problem is go whack the fella.. hahahahahahaha.. what an adult!!! honestly im fed up with all this crap.. i will not stand for it.. sigh..

Anyway thats what im honestly feeling.. gonna cut it loose now.. Jesus, i ask for strength to go thru the days, i'm not perfect.. yet i will not let my anger get the best of me. Bless my enemies, and teach me to love them.. I need your guidance.. i really do.. i know that you are the personification of Love.. i just dont understand how things work in your way.. =.=.. guess i need to do a lot of growing up. Lord i ask u hear this prayer.. teach me how to love. Amen..

Assumptions.

Do NOT Assume.

I was going thru my day as usual when the thought hit me.. So just wanna post it up as a reminder..
Sometimes, jumping to self-made conclusions can go a long way.. that is, a long wayyy down.......

Assuming things about someone, or even something.. has lots of side effects.
Sometimes, it destroys relationships.
Sometimes, it breaks down the whole team spirit.
Sometimes, it can even cause an entire company to just bankrupt.

Things don't always appear as they seem. All things have depth to them. And the way we do things should be based on Facts, not half-cooked assumptions taken from a 2nd or 3rd party.

Just thinking bout some stuffs.. Heh..

Zj

1st CF...

Woo.. I'm back.. XD.. uhh.. well.. kinda no mood to update for d past month.. Heh..
Anyways.. its the start of a new sem, the start of new CFs, CGs, new friends, new crazy happenings..
Today is the 1st day of our CF.....

We started off with prayer b4 the meeting as usual, then ppl started coming in.. I got really nervous cuz its our 1st CF as committees.. How will it turn out? What if we hav probs? Mic doesn't work? No song lyrics???
Thank God it did tho. Brother Fook Meng shared something about our theme: The Axis Of Love, and Jeremy, Eunice and Josh shared their bit about our vision and mission..

Basically thats about it.. after that we went supper.. and then headed home. I'll upload some pics next time if i can.. Til then, this'll do i guess..

To Unite and Reach Out in God's Love..

Heart of Worship

The past 3 days had been crazy.. and i'm not too sure that it'll be ending anytime soon.. It was the time of evaluating, choosing, and finally handing over of the new committee in CF..

To start off, on Fri we had lunch with pastor.. After that we had a session with her, where we did personality tests and found out a little more about our spiritual gifts and the strength and weaknesses of our character. After that Elder Fook Meng gave a little advice on decision making, before passing the time to the old comms, who gave us the task of planning and executing meetings and events for CF in a ten week period (scaled down to 90mins)..

Things started going downhill on our 1st task.. No one knew who was who.. Where our budget came from.. How to deal with campus authorities.. We didn't even know that MSK was a MMUCS event.. which meant we had to involve both other CFs in planning and organizing.. After the whole thing.. some of us were quite pissed.. some glad that it was over.. and some wondering if we could've done more.. But our eyes were opened to all the problems we might have in dealing with campus authorities.. Especially with MMU protocols.. XD

Ok so that was over.. had to rush off for worship practice.. had a lot of fun.. but dead tired after the whole thing..
Saturday came and went.. Had the most fun during steamboat session with a bunch of girls.. muahahahahaha..
After that hung out with felie n hui lee, b4 headin home to slp.

Sunday came. freakin mosquitoes wont leave me alone.. woke up 5am. Arghh... Sunday service came and went.. Again, had fun playing but my fingers were on the verge of dropping off.. Then round 5pm.. the Handover..

Pastor spoke about how Moses handed his responsibilities to Joshua.. and God's Word to him:

be Strong and Courageous.

And that was our call.. to be strong and courageous while leading as the new comms.. Things seem kinda tough right now.. But i know we can do it.. For God is with us.. and we shall be more than conquerors..

The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me.
Psalms 138:8

Treasures.

We had CG today.. Combined with Esther's CG.. Went to Sakurahouse for dinner, and then to Kopitam in DP.
Had some of the best Jap food around Melaka.. Stuffed myself to d brim.. No pics tho.. XD

Anyway.. Josh said something during the closing prayer that struck me.
That we can treasure this moment we have together. This friendship.. This fellowship..
To me friendships are very important.. and well.. life won't be the same if i haven't met the friends which i did.
They are my gold, my silver..

Then on the way home.. Y-k mentioned something about friends too. Somehow, it warmed my heart.

On a different note, friendships hurt the most when separation happens. and to most i guess, its the hardest to deal with.
But I guess we all have one hope: that no matter how far we are separated, or for how long, in the end, we'll have run the good race, and we'll see each other, somewhere beyond this life.

Peace,
A grateful friend.

My Wife.

She's about 3 years old now..
Haven't given her a name tho..
Any suggestions? XD

Hear and Do..

Today we had CF.. Its about what Jesus said in the Beatitudes- Matthew 5-7..

One who hears and does
whatever I said is like a Wise Man
who builds his house on
a rock.

One who hears but doesn't do
whatever I said is like a Fool
who builds his house on
sand.

SO HOT!!!!!

Random..

Micheal W. Smith
(20 years ago..)

John 3:16 - Believe.

..For God..
(the Greatest One)

..so Loved..
(the Greatest Emotion)

..the World,
(the Greatest Measure)

..He Gave..
(the Greatest Action)

..His only Son,
(the Greatest Gift)

..that Whoever believes in Him..
(the Greatest Simplicity)

..Shall not perish..
(the Greatest Promise)

..But..
(the Greatest Difference)


..have Eternal Life.