I'm not crazy i'm just a little unwell i know, right now you can't tell... but stay awhile and maybe then you'll see, how i used to be...
current state of mind: messed up. one big pot of grey matter stew... one might call it... blah..
my happiest line today: AANNNNDDDD AAAIIIIIIEEEEEEAAAAIIIII WILLL ALWAYSSS LOVE YOUUUUU.... XD
my heart is questioning, wondering, deducing, plotting, rebuking, replanning, focusing, running away, and holding on, and oh so many other things... here i shall try to express my feelings in a most unbiased way lol.. he said 'unbiased'... lol...
today i watched, thought and stared. some points i let myself go, but some i held on. and man it sucks.
yeng ah.. i reli duno wat u thinking... i reli dunno how to respond to u.. right now wat my heart needs is healing frm God. filling of His Spirit in me... with the wolves standing at the door of my heart, id given and committed myself to God... and may He lead me in my days. but it's not easy.. i see them everyday. fb.. face to face.. on my contact list. i just want to smash all these into pieces. i want to live life where i don't have to hunch. where i can look a person in the eye... and should God allow, to find back that especially precious person... the one who stood by me... the one whom still stands by... God may she see that I love her.. renew this love everyday God. don't just wonder whr she is, wat she's doing, who she's with... pray for her, bless her, pray for God's peace and comfort upon her. REMEMBER.....
got lighting n thunder.. sked sked... hahahaha... i shall go slp now.. tmr need to move hse.
