Bangun la mangkuk

Be still my heart, and know that He is God. Not just any God, your God. Just wake up already...

Deterioration.

Forming a new mask for myself wherever I go. Asshole mask. Hahahahahaha. Dunno for what. Protect myself? Reflect what I'm really like inside? So people stay away? I don't care. Video project due Tuesday. Imma die.

Random thoughts...

Exhausted... Futsal without dinner was definitely not a good idea...

Was thinking about why people chase or long after happiness.. Indeed for some, sadness and pain becomes a steady companion even til death. And for some, regrets.

I've come to a point where I find it almost impossible to live in the victory of Christ. Where if I'm saved one more time, my God is the world's most unjust and unfair God. Haha stress.

2 days up in Camerons was bliss. Being with my peers once again... having the same though wavelengths.. Even though we don't talk often, I know i can lean on them somehow. My mind went elsewhere tho during that time. but i digress..

I'm hungry... and broke. Shall hunt for food... Hope besok boleh bangun for lunch with le CGLs =D

Thursday...

Today was a good day, regardless of the voices inside my head. Woke up at 6.30 today. Just as planned. HAHAHA...

Managed to settle assignment, final class of the sem, Final CG which was some awesum fun!!! We had Wok n Pan dinner, some arcade games... (can't believe i actually tried that kangkang dancing thingy) Daytona was epic.. and we LOST to the girls in Basketball!!! Can u believe this??? o.O Siao liao...

To end it we went makan Baskin Robbins at Dataran field there.. too bad it melted... spent too much time at arcade LOL...

Best CG i've ever had in awhile. we had to rush back cuz I almost forgot Sa's curfew >.<... Made it in time tho...XD

That's about it for now... I suppose some joy is needed once in awhile eh? XD

PS. Good day haven't end yet. XD

Tired?

Living everyday is just so tiresome.... Maybe if i just don't wake up tomorrow morning?

Aftermath..

Just back from an awesome trip with awesome people up cameron's... Jerome let me drive downhill.. Woots! XD

Besok labtest. not prepared..

Gonna sleep and study early tomorrow.
Thoughts for the day... It's getting very lonely here. So so lonely... Just so lonely.


On a side note... Apparently I'm a useless piece of crap which will always be a useless piece of crap.. Good to know! =D


Goodnight everyone. =)

A random story... just because i felt like it.. XD

. . . as the bus rumbled by, I glanced at my watch, wondering when Bus No. 5 will come by. It's been a gloomy afternoon, as the clouds ran by over my head, as if racing to see who'd get to the end of the rainbow first. Rain seemed imminent since morning; yet not a droplet of it was in sight. A cruel joke on housewives having clothes to dry isn't it?

Today is my son's birthday... He's 5 this year, and I'm very excited to see his reaction when he sees the gift I'd bought him. It was a full set of a Lego Pirate Ship. I really hope he'll like it. It took me a whole afternoon of walking around the Toys R' Us in the local mall looking for the right set. It's been awhile since I saw my son. You see he stays a little away from me. That's why I have to take a bus to get to his house.

As I was mulling over my own thoughts the bus pulled up.

"Ticket to Pearl Street please," I said to the conductor.

"2 dollars," came a brisk, no nonsense reply. I paid my fare, and sat down on a seat at the third row. As the driver drove off, my thoughts began to wonder again..

About 20 minutes passed, and the bus dropped me at Pearl Street. My son should be staying at the end of the street... It was already 6pm, close to dinner... 'Maybe we can have take out tonight?' Again my thoughts wandered as I admired the neighbourhood while walking up to my son's house. Some kids were cycling around, while a dog chased a cat around not too far away. I took a deep breath, and walked up the lawn, and rang the doorbell to my son's home.

As the door opened, I shouted: "Happy 5th Birthday Michael! Look what daddy got ya?"

"Dad, I'm 35 already.. Did you sneak out of the old folk's home again?" Michael replied. I beamed and just nodded.

"Aw dad you do this every year; but I know you'll never forget my birthday. I love you dad," Michael said as he hugged me right across the back. A tear rolled down my cheek as I hear a young boy's voice at the back of the house: "Daddy daddy is Grandpa here to celebrate your birthday again?!"

-The End-

It's been awhile...

As the title says, yea... haven't been blogging for awhile. Mostly cuz my main inspiration is kinda gone nowadays.. heh.. Things are going so slow its glacial... or maybe i've grown so apathetic that I don't seem to care anymore... but i want to.. at least i think i want to. Just wondering when will i snap out of this.

Midterm on Thurs. Hope my CG can jadi lah... To be honest i really dunno what else i can do.. just so few people every week. We shall see when everyone comes back =)

Been binging on World of Tanks for d past few days... keeps my mind off things.. although i kinda feel bad for hogging Scott's com.. Can't wait for a pc i can call my own. XD

Well that's about it for now. Shall continue my I.T. Crowd. XD


PS. It was good to see her again.