Something i've to remind myself everyday... else i'd stop. and time would stop moving.. again. I don't want that. Supper today was interesting... mainly because Alvin was around.. and Zijian picking went to a whole new level... tu lah throw in MT lagi... Funny giler... say something kena.. quiet kena.. walk away kena.. emodai hahahahahaha..
They said I can tahan cuz i too patient d... that whatever comes I'd just bow n laugh/shrug it off... The truth is that i just have other things in my mind.. things that i'd never opened up to people. well I tried, but they seemed to be more preoccupied by their problems; and i'd always end up hearing them out instead.. So i stopped looking for shoulders of comfort long ago. and well, mainly because the only shoulder i had is also why i need a shoulder nowadays.
I'll admit tho, most of the time I cari pasal by letting my mind go berserk. But the trauma I went through isn't that easy to let go. I could've if I wanted to I suppose... but its just me being a childish idiot i suppose.
I've said I need to move on. I've said I'll keep my distance. But in my stubborn little ways I'd continue to call/message her. My mind wanders to her.. wanting her attention. bodo.
Then there's this whole other matter of the wrong signal thingy... Alvin n Hannah having the time of their lives bugging me bout it... =.=... I've let go people!! But it's a normal thing to feel attraction ma.. hence face red lor... sorry lorrr.... maklumlah she's a really attractive person, not to mention the amount of time spent around her. But sometimes I wonder why she still hangs around so often. why she omits his name whenever she hangs out with him.. but maybe that's just me thinking too much.
Gotta focus back on God. n Assgs... I look forward to Running Man 2.0... didn't join nor organize the 1st one... will be fun this time around =D
finally rant habis. nite peeps!!
