Blerghhhh

Rethinking my life again... Just how many times must I go through this phase man.. so tedious... XD

Rain...

It's been 2 weeks since I'm back.. more than a month since i last saw her.. come to think of it.. I really do miss her. Heh..

My thoughts hitherto are even more scrambled than Einstein's messy hair. I'd given up sorting them out. Numbs the pain at least. Just take everything step by step as they come. For now I need to focus on CF tmr, combination CGs this week, and serving on Sat..

I wish not to divulge my thoughts to anyone... there was a time I wished someone'd care enough to want to know me. There were, but I guess I'm not a very pleasant book to read. Somewhere halfway you'd find a torn off page.. misleading bookmarks everywhere.. heck the cover just looks nice while the plot is borderline non-existent. But I won't stop penning them down here i suppose.. It helps to know where my mind's been.. so that I can pull myself back, should I wander too far off course..

I've been irritable, withdrawn and just plain annoyed everytime I speak to some people... But lets hope that comes to past. For now i just wanna rest. So tired... even so, tomorrow is a new day to fight.

And now for a lil SS moment... XD

SS Moment: my design for the Easter Flyers

I wanna explode hahaha..

My heart is constantly in pieces, in a tug of war. When did it become like this, I wonder..?
When will i stop lying to myself? When will i set this heart free?
I wonder...

=)

Many things happened today.. class.. lunch.. tea.. the ride.. CF.. supper..

Somehow I feel I can finally take that step forward again.

Jehovah Rapha...

It means the LORD my Healer... indeed I wonder how long will these emotional wounds I've suffered/caused will take to heal... IF they would ever heal... But I trust in You Lord... Heal us Lord... Heal us all...


Peace be with you.. =)

Idiot

I'm such a big one. Idiot. Idiot. Idiot... Just what is wrong with me???
Lord, I hand this to you... I don't want to whine, nor wallow in guilt. Cleanse me of my sin. I REALLY want to be rid of it forever. Help me to listen to the inward man. the spirit man. the real man in me. I beg of you flesh. stop this destruction already...