Lol. so epic... slpt at 4am, wake up b4 my alarm rang. achievement sia... Anyway, hari ini ku rasa bahagia. or at least I want to haha. Got some stuff planned for CG... *hint* Bacon n Cheese ngahahahaha..
Lately I'd been bit by the loneliness bug again. Maybe because She's said goodbye for good, maybe because a friend could just pass me by without even looking me in the eye, maybe because the hope i had for a healthy relationship with another is gone now that i know she's interested in another, maybe because alvin is so far away HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... not to mention hui lee also giler faar. that james lagiiiii fffffaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrr..... think he's in Auckland right now. can't wait to finally visit him someday.
For as long as i can rmbr, i'd been awkward at making friends.. for most of primary school I only had one close friend. and we'd read harry potter together under the desk during classes. and exchange letters til we were high school mates. But nowadays she busy kerja d lah... It wasn't til I went to church and Penang that I knew how to socialize. But even then, most of my high school life was spent alone at home. F5 nie start going out for supper.. F5 nie had people calling home to look for me. Hahaaa... Sorry la i really wallflower wan XD
But it was during these years (F4) that I came to know a friend.. a friend so close she knows everything about me. Even the way I think. Hahahaha. A friend who came to be my confidant. someone I could tell and relate everything to.. and I knew her the same way too.. come to think of it, it's been 8 years now... but she's gone... gone from my life(no she's not dead)... choi. haha... I miss that friend. Got nobody to crap to hahahaha.. or rather, got nobody's crap to listen to.. I wonder how's her posting going on. How's her family. How's her gougou n hamsters. Don't know why. If she'd meant this much to me why'd I let her go in this way. why'd i hurt her so. I only pray God bless her life. Please don't let her grieve anymore...
On the other hand, banyak reminders to rise up as a man once again. Sulk enough d hahaha. Kena discipline and walk right in His ways. Got so many things coming up... Dunno can handle anot D=
But I will... For my parent's sake, for the people I know...
P.S. Esmond so yeng!! Engaged d sia.. so epic... XD
P.PS There's only one person who can Drift with me. XD
morning zaljian!!
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